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well this years going pretty shitty, going through a buncha shittt with legal stuff, parents, friends, buuut it's gonna get better. i'm working on a buuncha my flaws this year and i'm hoping i'll come out a better person, school started n i'm excited cause i'm changing my perspective on it, instead of not wanting to go, I WANT TO, hmmm, havent been out since new years, had a horrible new years, took a massive fall n fucked up my face, so i'm going sober for a while until i can get more shit under control, ahhh what else? too much to talk about,

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well well well,

definitely haven't been on this for an extremely long time, siiince my last post i have completely ended a friendship that was pretty much more like a brother/sister closeness rather than a friendship. i loved him with everything i had, and no matter how much i never noticed that the way he treated me was probably 60% bad and 40% good, i only noticed when it was good, he DID treat me like shit but i never cared because my love for him outweighed that to me, but it was all building up, for at least 5 years, and it started to hit me more and more, was i really letting him treat me like that? this guy is supposed to be a brother to me, but he definitely didn't show it. i ended that worthless friendship and i'm more than happy that i did. but OTHER THAN THAT BULLSHIT, i've been doing good, just going to stupid fullerton, hanging out with pretty much the same people, alix always, damian, chelena, melissa, others here and there, new friends too, blahblah, got snakebites FINALLY, and my stupid fucking parents are trippin, forcing me to "take them out" yeah not gonna talk about that, ha, buuut blahblahblah, things should get better,

but before i go,

I DON'T TAKE BACK WHAT I SAID, and i never will. call me what you want, but i'm right and you're wrong. i didn't care before but now you're making someone believe that everything should be my fault. THAT'S more fucked up than what i ever said. that's it, you're done, you're absolutely dead to me.

way too long

haven't been on this shit in a month exactly, cool, well aaanywho this last month has been a rollercoaster ride, brandon left for arizona, and once he left i kinda distanced myself from that group of friends, it's just not the same without him here. uhhh going to schooool at fullerton, only got 3 classes though, hmm been through shit with friends, sorry to say names but pretty much bree and justin, me and them haven't had the best friendship recently, me and bree are definitely working things out :D me and justin too i guess but that's a whole nother complicated story, aaanywho, just been with alix and mikey mostly cause they're true friends unlike 70% of my other ones, ha. oh and damians back into mi vida! woo boozies por vida, haha, ugh idk i'm just trying to fill in as much as possible cause im tired of being on this shit and i wanna go lay downn, hmm basically it's been an emotional ass month, lol, hopefully gonna start getting back into this soon, it helps me vent and cope with things, haha all cheesy, ewww.

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soo friday i didnt really do anything at all, went and met up with alix mikey and some of his friends at top of the world, then me and alix were at my house, and i had to take dannys drunk ass home, me and alix got molcasalsa! at like 1 lol it was bomb, then we just slept and saaaturday i got all ready and went to christians party! omfg, i was wayyy fuckin drunk lol, went to brandons after the party, had to go get gnoe and take him back to the party, he ended up somewhere all random haha, thennn went back to brandons, then we got bored so me and chelena went to HENRY DUZ IT's house, jon and some other guys were swimming, haha, it was fun hanging out with them, everyone all drunk lol, then we went back to brandons, and i stayed the night, then today, came home, slept all day, cause i have a lil hangover, then went to aarons kickback for a couple hours, and now im about to go sleep, cause i feel like chet

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sooo yesterday it was mikey and alixs one year, so we all lored and got seesee and let me tell you we , wow, dont even wanna get into that lol, so anyway i spent the night at alixs, and today i came home around 12 and just relaxed here all day, then alix came back over, i got aaron and christian, then dropped off aaron at work in LONG BEACH, pfft, but i got gas moneyz so it was okay, and on the way back i was arguing with some people about the situation im in :( it sucks really bad...but anyway then i just stayed here and alix went home a while ago, and brandon erick and aaron visited me wooo0o, but yeah im just here basically alone cause my cousins sleeping i think, my parents went out of town, buut yeah now i shall just wait till i can sleep, too much shit on my mind, i just want our friendship back...

ouchhhhh

well today i woke up at around 1, haha, went and got andrew then got dairy queen, then had to go back to his house to pick up money then go get dairy queen again for his cousins, pfft lol then we just hung out for a while till he had to go get his tattoo, then i kicked it in the tattoo shop for a little, then i went and got gnoe and ian and took them to get paint of course lol, then dropped them off at ians then went home and just relaxed for a while, then went to the gym with alix, then went back to alixs and made some pasta, and hung out with her and her little brother and these other little kids cause alixs mom and jeff arent gonna be home till like friday so this lady brendas staying there with her kids, it was fun, those kids are funny haha, so now im just about to go zzZZzZZzZZZ cause i have to go to the gym early tomorrow! hmph,,