well well well,

definitely haven't been on this for an extremely long time, siiince my last post i have completely ended a friendship that was pretty much more like a brother/sister closeness rather than a friendship. i loved him with everything i had, and no matter how much i never noticed that the way he treated me was probably 60% bad and 40% good, i only noticed when it was good, he DID treat me like shit but i never cared because my love for him outweighed that to me, but it was all building up, for at least 5 years, and it started to hit me more and more, was i really letting him treat me like that? this guy is supposed to be a brother to me, but he definitely didn't show it. i ended that worthless friendship and i'm more than happy that i did. but OTHER THAN THAT BULLSHIT, i've been doing good, just going to stupid fullerton, hanging out with pretty much the same people, alix always, damian, chelena, melissa, others here and there, new friends too, blahblah, got snakebites FINALLY, and my stupid fucking parents are trippin, forcing me to "take them out" yeah not gonna talk about that, ha, buuut blahblahblah, things should get better,